Mourn

Mourn

By Laura Quinn

Have I really expressed deep sorrow over each sin I’ve laid upon your body?
Have I really expressed deep regret that your holiness was violated for even the tiniest of my wrong doing?

Or have I only mourned over the guilt my sins made me feel, the emotions that arrived and I wished would go away

Or have I only mourned that I hurt someone I cared for with words or actions and wish they’d forgive quickly so my shame can escape

Or have I only mourned that my thoughts were not of you because it made me feel anxious or depressed that I thought them

Have I truly mourned over the fact that all sin is wrongdoing and it is you and you alone I have wronged and grieved

Have I said sorry to you like a timid child who did the very thing they shouldn’t?                 Only to be embraced by the one whom they did wrong to
Happy tears and relief that the love for them remains the same
Relationship restored                                       That is what is promised

But have I Lord truly mourned so I could receive the blessing of being comforted by you
At times I have, I know this but each day I pray more and more I mourn the scars I put upon you….put upon my Lord

And everyday may you find I am too busy to look at others  wrongs because I am busy mourning mine
Too busy to point a finger because my God is comforting my heart and restoring my mind

Ready to pray for those who struggle with their sin.                                                                   Because I am just like them                             And there’s only hope in HIM

Mourn, let me mourn for myself and for all mankind

Let my mourning turn me to prayer so that you can bring us back to life

“Blessed are those who mourn for they will be comforted” Matthew 5:4